I don't want to wait!

Almost immediately after posting my last post, I got the call from my RE to schedule the appointment to see if the infection is gone. Apparently, that test is done at the end of the cycle, not the beginning which is what I thought I had been told. So, now I have to wait another cycle to try to get pregnant.

This shouldn't be a big deal. What's one more month, right? But this has really discouraged me. I just feel like I'll start to get a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel and then it gets pushed back even more. I'm just getting really tired of the wait! (Aren't we all!) I think it scares me a little because we're getting closer and closer to our old due date. While I've tried not to set any expectations on us, it would be really hard for me to not be pregnant by then. But now we'll pretty much only have one chance before then.

I'm sure part of this is hormones. I'm trying to focus on all of the good stuff going on with us. My hubby has a  new job. I'm at least getting periods! That wasn't even happening before. It's only another month and then we can try. I have so much to be thankful for. There are so many people going through even harder situations, that I feel bad getting so frustrated about this.

I'll think of all the positives yet this has me so discouraged that all I want to do is cry! I try to be hopeful and  yet in the back of my mind, I'm kind of expecting the worst. Not to mention now pretty much all of my friends either have a kid(s) or are pregnant! I can't go anywhere to get away from it. I just don't know how to get myself out of this funk.