Today was my endometrial biopsy to see if my infection/inflammation is gone. I won't find out the results for another week.
The doctor said it would like a pap smear so I didn't think anything of it. I wish I would have asked around because it was no pap smear! Lol. He said he was doing something to numb me but it didn't help. I felt everything! At first just a tear - then sobs. :) It hurt so bad. Afterwards I thought I was going to throw up, but didn't. So I started to head out when all of a sudden I started blacking out. So I told the sweetest nurse ever who helped me lay down. Apparently I don't handle pain well. I guess that means I'll be using an epidural :)
I've been really good lately. I'm growing/healing, feeling more myself, and having fun! But today I was bummed. I'm so tired of all this crap. Why are so many of us having to go on this long and painful journey - both emotional and physical - while others get pregnant on their first try? Just doesn't make sense.
I'm just tired, physically from lack of sleep, tired of waiting, tired of a roller coaster, tired of hurting, just tired! I'm so ready to get pregnant again. I pray it happens soon.
The Grind
1 year ago
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I'm so sorry it was so painful! I'm glad you're ok now and that the sweet nurse was there for you. I hope this means you will get a green light and be pregnant very soon!
Ugh, I know exact what that felt like because I had something similar done last year. It hurt like hell and my doc at the time said almost the exact same thing about it feeling like a pap. :( I hope the results come back clear so you don't have to go through that again... and so you can start trying! Keep us posted.
that sux they didnt warn you about that. i'm sorry it was so painful. fingers crossed that it comes back clean and you can start ttc'ing again soon!
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