Hopeful

I just got back from my pre-op appointment for my Hysteroscopy. I'm pretty sure I'm the only person to be so excited to have this procedure done! I think it's just the timing of it works out so perfectly with insurance and stuff going on in life. Plus to have my uterus cleaned out and looking like a normal healthy uterus is a good thing! I was told I can start TTC again after this cycle, assuming all goes well tomorrow.

My first appointment with this Doctor was in January. My husband and I left the appointment SO excited, up-beat, and hopeful. We knew we had found a great doctor. We were so glad to be seeing a specialist. And, we were really hopeful of our chances to get pregnant. (Little did we know we already were!)

When I left the doctor's office today, I had the same feelings. I was SO excited and hopeful about our future. I feel like I'm in good hands with this doctor. I'm nervous because I don't know how long it'll take us this time. But I'm really hopeful that before too long I'll be pregnant again and just pray that it'll be a healthy full term pregnancy.

There are plenty of fears that try to sneak in, but I'm trying really hard to stay focused on the excited and hopeful feelings. On our way home from the appointment, I saw a billboard for the baby wing of the hospital I will most likely be delivering at. In the past, that would have gotten me a bit bummed because for one I'm not pregnant yet and for two that was the hospital where I had my d&c. But today, it made me hopeful to think that one day I may actually be there to deliver a healthy baby.

Oh what a difference it is to feel this way. The past two months have been really hard on me emotionally. It's great to finally have some HOPE!